Kabhi Na Dukhana Dil

Vaadein kiye the jo hazar bhula na dena
sath mera, na chor jana..
Bandh gyi hai jo dor tumse,
kabhi use tootne na dena..

Mukhtasir mushafir aznabi hu mai..
Ankhiyon ke zharokhon se dekhte tum rehna..
Mai bhi aakhiri jhalak tak tujhko dekhunga.

Dil-E-Dhadkan ki khwahish ye rahegi,
waqht ruk jaye fir v ye saanshein chalegi..
Roshni ki ibadat,
aur tumhari ye dua..
Sath mere har kinare rahegi.

Lehro ki uffan me,
sada ye kashti rahegi..
Kabhi jo toot v jayegi ye kashti..
To v ye tale ke upar rahegi..
Sath mere tu sada hashti rahegi.

LOVE OF A GIRL WHICH LIES IN MY CITY, DHANBAD

SHE WAS CUTE A LITTLE SHORT IN HEIGHT .."SAWLI" FACE WITH LOTUS EYE, MORE COMPLICATED WAS HER VOICE..MORE TORTURED WAS HER WAIST ..I EVEN DONT KNOW WHAT WAS HER HAPPINESS SOURCE ..SHE WAS NOT INTERESTED IN FINDIND WAY TO THE HAPPINESS SHE WANTED TO GET IT FROM ANOTHER PERSON.. SO CALLED TOTALY DEPENDENT ON OTHER TO BE HAPPY OR SAD... SHE LIVED ALONE TILL AGE 19th. SHE FIND NO INTEREST IN MAKING NEW FRIENDS ... BUT TAKES INTEREST IN DOING NEW..SHE MAY NOT BE WORTH OF OTHER...SHE WAS NOT WRITTEN FOR ANY PUBLICATION STILL SHE WAS PUBLISHED ALOT! ....FACEBOOK WAS HER 1st IMPORTANT WORK.....AND TONTING HIS YOUNG BRO WAS 2nd.

SHE MET A BOY ON FACEBOOK... WE SAY THAT WE CANT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER..

SAME IMPLIES ON HIM... BUT THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN BOOK AND HIM WAS ....BOOK HAS SAME TEXT ALWAYS...  BUT BOYS NATURE WAS DIFFERENT WITH EVERYONE..

THIS WAS THE TIME WHEN WE PASS THROUGH A PHASE CALLED MATURITY BOUNDARY.. WE DONT UNDERSTAND THE VALUE OF ANY RELATION ...WE JUST KNOW "WHAT ARE THE BENIFITS WITH A PARTICULAR RELATION ...AND HOW WE CAN BE HIGH ON THAT TERMS."

HE LIKED HER ON FB AND SEND MSG'S SHE WAS A BROKEN HEARTED GIRL THAT TIME. SHE WAS IN NEED OF A SHOULDER , ON WHICH SHE CAN CRY..ON.

BOY WAS SENTIMENTAL.. HE WAS IN PHASE WHEN HE WANTED TO HAVE AN EXPERIENCE OF BODY, LOOKS, AND GO COMPLETELY THROUGH NATURE OF GIRL.. HE WAS IN WRONG PHASE.. AND HE MADE AN MISTAKE..

"AN" LOOKS LIKE SOMETHING GREAT... BUT NOT TO WORRY AN DONT COMES BEFORE CONSTANT ....BUT IF U WANT TO PUT... YOU CAN ... JUST LIKE ME!!!

THE SAME NATURE, YOU GO THROUGH IN 19th. IN THIS PHASE YOU MAKES A OR AN MISTAKE BY YOUR OWN ....STILL HAVING THE KNOWLEDGE OF GOOD AND BAD...

HE WAS HAPPY WITH HIS CONDITIONS WITH HIS GIRL.... HE MADE HIS TERMS WITH HIS GIRL GOOD, SHE WAS ALSO HAPPY... SHE RELYS ON HIM... AND A 365 DAYS OF YEAR PASSED..

BOY WAS FULFILLED OF HIS CONDITIOND ...HIS TERMS WAS GETTING NOT GOOD HE MADE A DISTANCE FROM GIRL SHE WAS IN TRAUMA HOW A BOY WHO CAN UNDERSTAND HER CAN BROKE HER HEART.. BUT BOY WAS IN A PHASE WHERE HE WAS LEFT WITH NO ANY OTHER OPTION... HE MADE HIMSELF TO AVOID HER SHE MADE CUTS & SHE WAS TORTURING HERSELF, BOY DID'NT WANT HER TO DO THESE ALL RUBBISH... HE TRIED TO EXPLAIN EVERYTHING .... LASTLY SHE ONLY SAID YES.. BUT SHE WAS PRETENDING.

NEAR FAR WHERE EVER YOU ARE...

I HOPE MY HEART WILL NOT GO ON AND ON.... BOY WAS FRUSTRATED.

THIS WAS THE PHASE WHERE HE WAS SINGLE AGAIN AND WAS IN NEED OF A GIRL.... HE WAS AGAIN BACK TO HIS GIRL.... THEY WAS NOW LIKE BEFORE ....BUT WHEN THE WRONG PHASE RISES BOY LEFT HER... THIS TORTURE ....EMOTIONALY - GIRL HAVE TO TOOK...

SHE NEVER SAID OK... LEAVE ME ALONE... BOY ALWAYS SAID ..PLZ LEAVE ME ALONE..

NO DAY WAS THERE FOR HER HAPPINESS...

SHE WAS ALONE...

SHE WAS BROKEN..

BOY WAS ALONE

BOY WAS FRUSTRATED...

BOY UNDERSTOOD HER......... HE MADE A FRIENDSHIP WITH HER.... SHE STILL LOVES HIM... BUT HE KNOW ONE DAY FRIENDSHIP WILL DEFEAT LOVE...... NOT UNIVERSALY....BUT LOVE WHICH LIES IN HER FOR HIM.

AT THE TIME OF MATURITY LEVEL WE KNOW HOW TO MAKE OUR CONDITIONS WITH EVERY RELATION...

BUT BY ADULTHOOD ON, WE REALY KNOW WHAT IS RELATIONSHIP... AND THERE IS NO CONDITIONS IN RELATIONSHIP THERE ARE ONLY TERMS...WHICH YOU HAVE TO MAKE BETTER WITH EVERY RELATION..

YOU MAY ALSO FALL IN THESE TYPE OF SITUATIONS.... MOVING ON IS NOT A SOLUTION... UNDERSTAND THE NEXT PERSON... SEE WHAT RELATION SUITS YOU.... AND THE BE IN THE LIMITS OF THAT RELATION. AND FRUSTRATION..... I 'LL POST AN AARTICLE ESPECIALLY ON THIS... BUT ONE AND ONLY THING FOR FRUSTRATION IS  THAT, DONT THINK ABOUT LOOSING, LIKE LOOSERS ALWAYS THINKS LIKE A WINNER.. DONT COME IN IMPACT OF  DEMORALISATION.

DO WHAT YOU ARE EXPERT AT.......

ALL FAIR , FRIENDSHIP... AND THE FAIR LOVE.. WITH OTHERS..

Worm of 69mm

          A Day UnLike Another Day
A blur image of a white and brown object of 69mm appeared which was kept on my dining stool nearby the night lamp in fresh white morning. I made my hand and got the cyllinder of white and brown.
After 5 min
Smokes were filled in my room, i was awaked from the six minutes and i heared the door bell and i shouter "whos this??"
No reply came from outside.
I raised low my white and cream colour blanket down to left. I stood up and opened the door and i found no one.. "fuck..who's the motherfucker disturbed me?" I get into the bathroom, opened my clothes and sat down to bath tub, i found again the 69mm packet of cyllinder, i taken 6 after a while of time. I could see my door opened; of my room and bathroom directly. And i was slept again after half an hour.
I was in dream of my ex, she was with me on the bed holding each other tightly, kissing her badly phone ranged, she recieved and said i've to go i was full on that time with intake of 750ml of AC BLACK.
"where are you going?"
'Hav to go for urgent'
"But where??'
'Dad is calling me'
"Again"
"Fuck you damit, you never stay with me"
She screamed loudly 'its urgent'
"What urgent?"
"You are not going"
My eyes were red and on the hype of temper look.
I could see in front mirrorm. Then my sight went on her naked hips, i pulled her to bed, closer and closer to me but she was in frustration. I licked her waist
"Come baby, dont leave me alone"
'No time boy'
"I'll slap you"
'Better next time dear'
"Dont leave me alone bitch..fuck its out of my mind, everytime i get you you escape"
'Dont abuse'
"I 'll abuse... you are my girl-common 've sex"
'Sex'
"Whats new?"
'You only need me for sex'
I slaped her..
She left me alone... "sony come back"
"Fuck! Fuck!"

I slept on bed thinking only about her.. and i got asleep.

A cold feel, i could feel... water was too cold.
I waked up - lighted the 7th ciggarete. Suddenly a girl with black panty and bra appeared coming near to me, i could not able to saw her face cuz that was under a red mask. She came along with me in tub and first touched my chest ... that touch was extreamly hot. She took my ciggarete and took it. I was still under the effect of AC BLACK. She kissed me underwater and searched for my dick. She made me feel relaxed mah wrist touching her hips opened her pant, then i turned right above her as i opened mah eyes for the next look she was disappeared. And i felt with mah face deep in tub. Half of my vitals were working excet my brain. Thinking power was lost and i heared fire round. Frame by frame i saw myself lefting the tub direct too room. Stuked a black cotton shirt and jeans with a 9mm piston. Police shot at me and i was injured on my leg-left. I came accros my window pane a direct to 2nd floor to ground hype of sands. They thought i escaped.

AFTER 9 HRS

I was in pain and fighting. A black mercedes came nearby me and stopped. I move to car,in rare i saw the same girl who had come to my tub with same red mask.
She looked me and stopped the car. I was drawn to a house door and layed on a soft bed. She injected me and i was asleep.

11:40 pm

I woked up i was treated well. She offered me coffee.
"Who are you?"
'You dont know me'
"Now you 'll say but i know you"
'No...i dont'
'My sister knows you'
"Whose ur sister??"
'Same who came to you in your tub today'
"She's ur sis??"
'Yes'
"Whats your name??"
"Why you saved me??"
'Ashley' 'my name, it does'nt matter to you'
'You are ok now??'
'You can go'
"As you wish ....and thanks for the cure"
I was leaving the room she said wait..
'Whats your name??'
'TJ' - Tom Javier
She cqme closer to me and touched my face.
'Kiss me' she said
"Sorry not this time"
And i left her house

In mid night of 12:05 i was roaming on the road with a quarter of AC BLACK.
Thinking all of my girl..how her disloyality made myself a worm of 69mm. And why she revealed my secrets.

I sat on divder and i felt asleep.

Next morning with rise of low sun.. at 6:00am i lighted the 8th one and went home. Opened the door and lighted the 9th one ... and i saw her on my bed with another guy.. i unlocked the pistol and shooted her... suddenly no one was there.. i was not in my control and get off the cloths and sat into my tub when i lighted the last one.

AFTER 5 MIN

A black bikini girl ...my girlfriend came into my tub and kissed me, my wrist touching her hips opened her panty. And i turned left to get over as i opened my eyes for the next look i found she searched for my lips and kissed me.

No Reasons to Be Friend

Life just a fucked ass. Everytime i tried to be good, i was kicked back to hell. I may not be the darest evil on earth but inside yes i am a Devil. And its fuck only matters to that all bitch friends, all people ass stubbed with my dick have to cry one day. This is only what the reason today i am afraid of. Getting low and more low day by day.  No path to trace, no space to occupy even no emotional values to cry. My selfmade sins only are destroying me today. No acceptance no interections making me the more worst. I today also remember that i was begun with the virtue of my own goodness but from now this very second of my i am ending myself with the badness and unlucky fucked fate of me. Dont know where i am lost in the world of crowd and where my good friends are left alone in this world.