Tootne Ka Bahana

Kashh ki Ek ghadi...
Hatho me hathkadi,
zala ke bhing gayi..
Zindagi hi jal gayi...

Saansh me Nami,
Waqht me kami,
sajda samajh ya rushwa..
Haqikat samajh ya sapna..

Hoth pe Roshni..
Kahi ban na jaye Chingari..
Lehro ki Majhdar me kahi fash na jaye Zindgani.....
Bujhate bujate ye aag, kahi bujh na jaye Pani.

Tut kar kahi bikhar na jaye..
Bikhar kar kahi kho Na jaye..
Kho bhi jao agar tum..
To bhi mujhe chor na jao..

Aa jao ab to aa jao..
Bahane to bhot hote hai;
Fir se sambhalne ke..
Par is Na chiz ke khatir,
Jaan Kabhi tum toot na Jao..

22.55 13.09.12

On 9/23/12, Abhishek made in loveistan <abhishekawara12345@gmail.com> wrote:
> Nothing to loose,
> thinking just of you.. <3
> it was clear my heartbeat was so fast..
> The runoff of the time was like streaming water at Night..
> The Lights reflection was just like My sparkling eyes..
> It was not because my eyes were gazzeling..
> It was due to the eyes i'd been with was crying..
> Even the broken eyes can cry now...
> No matter 'where was my tear's'
> It was just the set of Emotions,
> which created the disturbance..
> In only a Single Night I was completely Destroyed..
> Sense's of mine were lost..
> Attitude of mine were like Apocolypse.
> Where everyone had to die..
> But at last my sense's was Active and i found, i was Alone..
> I was the only person who was disturbed.. And the text i wrote..were
> the disturbance.
> 23:00 , sunday, 9th sept 2012
>
> On 8/30/12, Abhishek made in loveistan <abhishekawara12345@gmail.com>
> wrote:
>> A new beginings...
>>
>

Not with the Sense

Nothing to loose,
thinking just of you.. <3
it was clear my heartbeat was so fast..
The runoff of the time was like streaming water at Night..
The Lights reflection was just like My sparkling eyes..
It was not because my eyes were gazzeling..
It was due to the eyes i'd been with was crying..
Even the broken eyes can cry now...
No matter 'where was my tear's'
It was just the set of Emotions,
which created the disturbance..
In only a Single Night I was completely Destroyed..
Sense's of mine were lost..
Attitude of mine were like Apocolypse.
Where everyone had to die..
But at last my sense's was Active and i found, i was Alone..
I was the only person who was disturbed.. And the text i wrote..were
the disturbance.
23:00 , sunday, 9th sept 2012

On 8/30/12, Abhishek made in loveistan <abhishekawara12345@gmail.com> wrote:
> A new beginings...
>

Under the Hood

                                          Under the Hood

Rain Started..
I'd no Idea wheather to stop somewhere or just go on..
Rain was Abonded on my way.. The traffic were high on the Road. Horn Noises were irritating mah broken heart. I still decided to go and not to stop. Rain was heavy. I was in my hood and i moved. My every step were just going back ; in Flashback, and were Remembering the Pictures of my Personal life. Muzic of Rains, Tune of Vans, Buzzing of Bikes apart from this no one Noticed a Heart's Strike. These all Mixup to form a Sensation Inside me. I Was going through the mid of the road cuz it had some space to escape. The same were in my life, i chose a mid way, where space was there, but i did'nt thought that it may be dangerous. Hood on my face were protection of not to get recognised. I was not ashamed of my did. But i was feeling insecure and i was afraid too.
I 'd a girl. She had a boyfriend and i was her lover. She dumped him because of me and i hurt her because i was stupid. She turned out this way that, she dumped him cuz of me, and i dumped her cuz i was Stupid. She turned me this way that i stood wrong for her. She was a girl of pure enjoyment. one night She'd a party invitation she offered our group and me too. We went to the party and we were late. Party was over now, we all were frustrated , we were in mood of party and there was no party now, we decide to get back to the hotel and do some enjoyment. That night her boyfriend was co-incidently there. She and i was still in not a good relation. Next day i and rest of the group were came to know that she hanged herself that night. Reasons were not sure. I cried alot . .alot . I was in trauma for six days. Later we came to know that her boyfriend raped her after drugging her. I were in full throttle. I decide to do something. Next day i made a plan and waited long...

After four year. . . .

Yesterday, i made my work, and i achieved mah trophy as his weakness. "uploading finished". Mobile showed a comment. I was in the same Hood with two blades in my hand and 100gm of drugs. Door no. 101 was locked. I was the master at breaking lock and i breakout in his room.
I made a deal-
"Die yourself or watch Watch yourself dying"
He chose 2nd one, i made a cut in his throat that was not breath taking. And puts 100gm of drugs there and in his nose. Them i went to bed. His girlfriend came nervously. There was a condom on table.
Today news paper first page says . . . .
-over dose taken breath
Media highlighted the murder but the murderer was still not in the lockup. Many people thinks that the person died was an innocent person, he might be an innocent person but in murderer view, he was a killer and rapist.
In my way i tried hard not to cry but 4 yrs tear's just flooded in my eyes and i was broken.
Then i smiled and started laughing loudly, too loudly . .
Road was clear and everywhere people were gathered. In groups, mobile and  i-pods were streaming the video. Some one voice came over. . "whats the title?" i was on the top of bridge.
Everytime when we feel that we owe a curse inside. Then there will be a challenging question asking you always. "Is it bad ?" i was a broken hearted person. Still i said No. And i accepted..
That 'i owe a curse and i did'nt did any sin . . . . . .'

 My body will fall down 1000 ft down in ocean..
And a girl said - The tiltle is 'SEX in 101'.