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Sunday, December 30, 2012

Wo Chikhein haar gayi

Kuch zindagi maut ko chunti hai. To kuch maut zindagi ko. Magar yaha na to zindagi ne kuch chuna aur na hi maut ne. Kuch chuna v to wo thi asafal haari huyi zindagi. Chikhon ne insaaf maange aur mili use maut. Hazaro crore dua aur saath ek pal me mano bikhar gya ho. Acchayi bauni lagne lagi hai. Dharm aur loktantra se vishwas v uthne laga hai. Kuch na ho saka ye alag baat hai. Hum kuch na kar sake iske liye pura desh sarminda hai. Tham gayi jab saanshein uski tab fir jagi hamari loktantrik pahluyein aur gusson ne unki bolti band kar di. Intzaar tha to bs mango k pura hone ka. 2.15 am baj raha tha jab usne apni aakhiri saansh li. Aur pura ka pura desh razayi k andar so raha tha. 16 dec v 29 dec se kuch kam na thi. Vahi haal tha. Sochne wale log aage badhe to na sochne walo ne fir vahi kaam kiya jise hum tamasha dekhna kehte hai. Ro v nahi sakta pura desh aj ek sath. Hamare is loktantrik desh me kanoon ne v hath piche kar liye. Koi kanoon v aisa paas nahi ho paya jo yah taye kare ki balatkar karne ki kya saza hai. Faanshi lagane ki maang hai Damini Rape Case ko lekar sabhi isi jutt me hai ki un 6 logo ko faanshi honi chahiye. Magar kya hum sirf Damini k liye hi ye jang lad rahe hai? Jab yahi jang ladi ja rahi thi tab sehar bhar me pure desh me kai alag alag jagah bahre danav ne kuch nahi sikha. Upar se isi balatkar k bich aur balatkar ki khabre aati rahi. Kyo  itne hairvaan hai hum ? Kyo hum koi kanoon nahi banate? Aur kyo hum acche insaan nahi banna chahte? Kya aj 29 ko mai yah keh sakta hu ki meri behan aur tamam ladkiyan surakshit hai? Ya mai kabhi hairvaan nahi banunga. Jawab bhale hi satt pratishat na ho. Par kya hum aisa soch v sakte hai? Un 6 logo ki vajah se hi aaj Damini ki maut huyi hai kya ab unhe faanshi nahi honi chahiye?????

Ek asurakshit desh ka sarminda nagrik
-TJ

Friday, December 28, 2012

Smoking Kills

Bahot mushkil hota hai ..jab kisi ka sath choot jata hai, jeena bhot mushkil ho jata hai.
Mushkil isliye nahi kyonki aap us vyakti ke sath nahi hai...mushkil isliye kyonki aap jee nahi sakte. Jeene k liye koi sathi na bacha.....is kathin raah ko chalne ko koi humsufer na raha.
Mushkil waqht mano un thandi chamdiyon ki trah hoti hai jinhe sard barish wali raato me ek kambal v na mila ho.....koi v nahi paas. Bs tab agar koi sath hai to wo hai aapki aatma..jo ki aapse be-inteha nafrat kar rahi hogi..aur ap iss apne gamm se uthne k liye ek sathi ki talash karte h...smoking.. aur tabhi se wo apki khushi aur dhire dhire zindagi ban jati hai....par is mehbooba ko hum chor nahi paate...jo khud v ye chahti hai ki aap use chor de......aur aap ye zindagi dene wali mehbooba ko apni maut bech dete hai.
Smoking is injurious to heath.
And it kills....
Par fir v ....ise haqq hai ki wo apki zindagi ban kar rahe....kyonki usne aapko ek nayi zindagi zine ka mauka di hai.
But...
It kills.....

Sunday, December 23, 2012


           Hate Me, Urself And All Humans

Have You Ever hated yourself? Yes ..you had..i know. But if Not ..then you have to hate yourself. and experienced fellow too have to be hate himself again. Cuz We are Humans.. The Most Waste Creation of God. Abuse Me... for these lines, but i can't stop here. you All must be known and aware of the 16th December 2012 DELHI RAPE CASE. Yes the DAMINI RAPE CASE. ....now dnt think that its a support to her kind of blogpost or any sentimental writting or any pray for her or Hard to hard extent Punishments Appeal For the Rapists. Cuz this is My Text... A TJ Material.. yes it is a DAMINI RAPE CASE post..no doubt.. and i am supporting her...and you all along with whole INDIAN CITIZENS are too Suporting For Damini. what was your reaction after you heared the BREAKING NEWS ? "ladki ka naam kya hai?" "kaise hua ye sab?" "kaha hua?" "kitne log the?" "ladki kya kar rahi thi?" "ab ladki kaisi hai?"

clap clap clap for you all................................!
you should have first asked "Un 6 logo ne Ladki ka Rape kyo kiya?"

Answers Nahi sochiye...!
Kyonki jab sochna chahiye tha tab aapne socha nahi... aur abhi sochenge to kuch karenge nahi.. agar fir bhi lagta hai kuch to karenge aap to aage padhiye.. Sharmnaak Incident

Dont think who is wrong. Dont think who made the mistake. Dont think who is responsible for the incident. cuz its all will be a napkin kind of thought. just use and throw after use.. one after one rape cases came from Delhi. no one did anything. rapist are free roaming and enjoying the day , min, sec of his life.
why a man rape?
-apni hawass mitane k liye?
-Revenge lene k liye?
-ya wo psycho hai isliye?
first one is ur general answer..
kaise koi shikar ho jata hai kisi rapist ka?
-kyonki wo nashe me jyada hawass k shaitan ho jate hai?
-shorts me ladiyan sexy lagti hai?
-Revenge lene k liye?
-ya wo psycho hai isliye?
sayad ab aap confuse ho..
but first and second is ur answer.

hawass kya hai? sabhi ko pata hai..
but kya ye sifr india k logo ko hai? bahar desho k admi napunshak hai kya?

India's thinking is still at the bottom. not only in villages but in towns too. they never allow girls to go outside in shorts. and many people thinks thats this is the reason why they get harrashed or accused of eve teasing. but no one see the mentality of rapist or the man who is in harrasing mood. a full covered girl in sari can also be a victim, if the rapist mood is on the hype. he looks for a perfect timing for the rape and if it is not a perfect one then also he can take the risk for fulfiling his purpose. his main motive is there to satisfy his boiling harmones and to have an orgasm.
how a man becomes a Rapist?
in india maturity level average is too low. peoples dnt think what to do, but there are many peoples too who dont know what to know. Boy and girls are kept seperate. boys are allowed to do everything which he wants. but girls are not. they left unaware of there mutuals feelings and understanding. mens society get a chance to dominance over womens..which apparantly makes a sense that mens are at superposition and womens are not. uplifting to govt. and police they are all like retired old person. who can not solve or understand the present need of society.
promotions to sex and orgasm materials is also a big point in making a man to a inhuman rapist. sex sites, blue films dvd and magzines helps in maintaing the level of sex boiling point.
an understaning and trust in between parents and childrens are also the reasons, a direct bond of a daughter to her parents are very imp. sexy dresses and styles are not any reason to attract a rapist mentality. but fashion sud be less....till the mental economy of indians go high. as they are not ready to see these kind of environment and surrounding. freedom to everyone is his or her birth right, no doubt. but a rapist never thinks about your freedom. he just wants to fulfil his purpose of sex in anyway.

in real world out from the internet and tv breaking news of 16th dec damini rape case in delhi, many peoples are fighting for the justice to damini...the 23 yr old girl..and the victim. please support her.. be a human, and have a look inside you..what kind of satan is taking birth. stop having dose of sex and orgasm, and drinks which makes you a devil.

rapist must not be given any kind of mercy and sud be punished to the hard extent..so that a terror in the devil mind sits permanently and avoid him to do these kinds of shameful act.

rest is in our hand. what we choose and how we choose, to being inhuman or to being a human with humanity and the fair love.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Mehek Aj Bhi Dil Me Hai

Anjana sa ek mod hai. Kahi khada koi bhot door hai...
Lagta hai apna sa koi is rashte par, par jo Mehak hai wo kahi gumm hai.
Feka hua ek gulab jo dikha.. use masal kar aage mai badha tha;
Raat ko mai din samjh kar chala tha, kasamo ko khel samjh li hmne..badi gustakhi ho gyi...
Koi mabroor na tha, koi mazboor na tha..
Apna jo tha, wo humse door na tha.
Fir v the hum tanha na jane kyo...
Fool jo maine masla... Mehek aaj bhi mujhe uski kuchal rahi hai..
Udta hu fir se ek nayi panchi ki trah khule aasamaan me ..naye sire se pankh lekar ..
Pakad na sakega ab koi...
Khel nahi hai ab, kha chuka ek baar thokar..
Va-ruftagi se jo tmhe pyar karta hu..
Uski inayat bhi kabhi dekh lo..
Masla tha jin kadmo se us fool ko uski haalat bhi dekh lo..
Rehmat-e-pyar kurbaan kar gya teri shiddat me-
Masumiyat hai hi teri jo in nazakat me..
Dhoond na sakunga jitna bhi ud jao aj mai...
Us fool ki Mehak aaj bhi hai Dil me...
-1st dec @12


Dil ko jo yaad nahi Aasuon ne bayan kar di

Cham cham barish wali raat, tez ek zalti lal roshni hanthon me, dhuyein ka sama jo khamoshi kobl bula rahi thi..par khamoshi aa na saki.. door door tak koi awaj na thi barish ko chod kar. Magar chikh rahi thi khamoshi mere mann me.. aansu mere aankhon me datak de gyi..mere labon pe gir gayi. Mujhe kash na lene pe mazboor kar gyi.. dil ko jo yaad aya fir wo pal ... use aansuon ne pehlebhi bayan kar di..
1st dec@12

Ibadat bhi kijiye aur Vishwash bhi rakhiye

We humans, the most exhilarated creatures on earth. We have no pateince..and we make love , we do work is just a enthusiasticaly or excitedly ...but when we do prayers non of us can trust for that prayers but still we do. We know that by worshiping gods we put our trust in them. But when we did'nt pray or ask for something from god we dont put our trust. Just what we do is deal or trade, buisness the correct word.
Vishwash me agar aao vishwash kartevhi tabhi aap pray karne k layak hai. But ek agnostic hone ki wajah se mai ye bhi kahunga ki vishwas me agar aap vishwash rakhte ho to worship, pray, karne ki zarurat nahi hai.
Ek baar agar ap kisi ka vishwash karte hai aur wo bhi karta hai to aap vishwash jit'te ho. Agar aap kisi ka vishwash todte ho aur samne  wala tode ya na tode ap us'se kiye har wade ko loose karoge life me, bhale hi aap uske sath na karo. But kisi na kisi form me viswash todne ki kimat to ada karni padegi.
1 dec @12

Friday, November 16, 2012

Live like a Hero, never die like a willian

Being with the humanity today i ve made my rules. ..the rules who always fucks me. And i am forced to live a miserable life.. i ve been always white, i ve gone with being fair to everyone,and i am today a part of law and order..and the democracy. I may act as hero for the world but i am not that person. Humanity ends thinking goes low when ur confidence leaves you. We may get chance too to recorrect our mistakes. But in between we have fotget what the word trust means. I broke the trust of the people and they have leaved my side.  Today no one is with me.

Insaniyat mujhe bhula chuki hai...kyonki insaniyat v sirf usi ko yaad rakhti hai jo 'insan' hote hai. Aur mai sayad aj insan nahi hu. Mujhme wo viswas nahi jo log sayad mujh se chahte hai.. mai duniya k nazar me to hero ban chuka hu par meri zameer ne mujhe wilian bana diya hai.
You are a hero till you are alive.. and you if you wants to die you will have to be a willian. Never gone wrong the theory of relativity by einstien. For someone you are a willian but at same time you are a hero too for someone..
But the important thing is that what role your heart choose for you.
And what people wants from ur trust.
Was the demand is fair or not!

Monday, November 5, 2012

Koi to Apna hoga..

Mere dil me aj kya hai..tu kahe to mai bata du...magar kaise?? Kon sunn'na chahta hai meri baat..kyo aisa aaj lagta hai ki koi apna ho kar v apna nahi hai..sath ho kar v saath nahi hai.. kya hota hai us zahan me zaha koi kisi ka apna nahi hota...
Uske muskaan ki kimat kya hogi kiski ek boond ki aansuo se saat samandar bik jate ho? Kya har ghadi koi kisi ko yaad kar sakta hai? Han..kar sakta hai...magar tabhi jab samne wala bhi use yaad kar raha ho......
Aye dil-e-nadaan..aye dil-e-nadaan....hum bhatkte hai...kyo bhatakte hai....is pyar k dariya me...........zindagi maut se tanha ho rahi hai...wAqt takdir ka mukkadar nahi likh sakta yaro to kya meri kismat likh payega?
Ab to darr lagta hai unse ishq karne me ji... dil to baccha hai ji....
Ro ro kar guzarti hai ab zindagi unki yaad me...jaise mano taras raha ho khuda kisi ki fariyaad se....kafan v na mile us musafir ko to kya ho?  Jo ja mar raha ho apni manzil ki talash me?
Life is important....but the more important is living it..
Har wo insaan jo jinda hai....wo jeeta nahi aur har wo insaan jo mara ho wo marta nahi...
Kismat aur khel ki  baat nahi hai ye pyar..
Wo kehte hai na....
Har faisle hote nahi sikke uchaal hai...
Ye ishq hai yaro zara dekh bhaal k............


Saturday, October 13, 2012

Pata nahi kyo... Aj aisa laga

Nind v kya chiz hoti hai..sab kuch bhula dene ke liye kafi.. Magar kya
if k hum kuch chizo ko na bhulana chahe aur khud ko chot pahuchaye..
Bs wahi kar rha hu mai.. 2.30 am se jyada ho rha hai..aur mai khud ko
maar rha hu.. Kehte hai ki yaadon ko bhulana bhot mushkil hota hai..
Aur use bhul kar wapas sametna aur bhi muskil, kyo? ..nahi pata par ye
dard dete hai, aur ye dard bhale hi koi keh de ki meetha hota hai,
magar aisa nahi hai.. Ye sach me bhot dukh pahuchata hai..beete kal ko
soch kar aj ka life sirf waste lagta hai..jaise ki kisi jali hui panne
par fir likhna chahta hu mai.. Jo ki puri trah se na-mumkin hai.. Jane
kaise is zahan me itni yaadien sanjo kar rakhte hai log.. Bhot muskil
ho jata hai jeena jb apka apna apke sath na ho aur jo ho apke sath wo
apko apna na samjhe. . . .kis waqht kya ho sakta hai koi nahi janta. .
. . . . . . .human brain is difficult to understant but human nature
is just impossible.
Escaping problems is the most easiest thing in this world..but kya
agar sabse acha rashta yahi ho? If nahi, the aakhir raasta ho ? Tb
kya? Kya sahi aur kya galat yaha..yaha to bs khud me bhagne k alawa
kuch nahi.. I knw k in baaton ka koi matlb nahi thik is post ke jaise.
Par kya ye dil kavi khush reh payega? ........aur nind hamesa sb gamm
bhula deti h?

Thursday, October 11, 2012

| Rafta Rafta Ho Gayi Tu Meri 'Khushi'.. |

Mar Jaiye Par Aankhein
Na Hatayiye.. ..
------RAFTA-RAFTA------
A Show Of Internal feelings with her...
Rafta-rafta ho gayi tu hi
meri zindagi..
Lafz na jane,
Fir bhi bayan hota hai..
Har aashiqui me dillagi
nai hoti,
Fir bhi pyaar hota hai..
Tanhayion ke sitam me,
Bante hai afshane..
Preet ke ek mushquan
par,
Sau zindagi khurban
hota hai ..
Mann me thi kuch
halchal,
Jo sayad dikh na rahi thi..
par dekhne ko majbur
tha dil,
Jal rahi thi raaz..
Phir bhi chup tha dil,
Darr tha ki kahe pighla
na de..
Wo aag iss mom se dil
ko,
Pagal thi wo stupid..
Jo aa gai pass mere,
Par mai bhi chahta tha..
ki rahe wo sath mere,
Rafta rafta ho gayi..
charon taraf roshni,
sajde me tere sar hai..
Thoda sa dil me dar hai,
kaise karoon main
bayaan..
Lafzo se bayan karne ki,
Zaroorat na thi..
Hosh me rehne ki,
Fursat na thi..
Rehna to chahte the,
Behosh unki bahoon me..
pPar kambakht WaQt ,
aur jagah sahi na thi..
Jaanu na,
Jaanu na.. jaanu naa,
Rfata rafta ho gai..

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Maut se Fariyad

Zindagi ko chor ka aayi aye Maut...sun le aaj tu vek fariyad, mera
yaar hai tere aagosh me jo..use utha kar mujhe apni bahon me le le,
itna to rehmat barsa ki aaj jo tu zindagi chor kar aya hai use maut se
na dara, aur na hi tu mere is Zindagi se darr..

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Tootne Ka Bahana

Kashh ki Ek ghadi...
Hatho me hathkadi,
zala ke bhing gayi..
Zindagi hi jal gayi...

Saansh me Nami,
Waqht me kami,
sajda samajh ya rushwa..
Haqikat samajh ya sapna..

Hoth pe Roshni..
Kahi ban na jaye Chingari..
Lehro ki Majhdar me kahi fash na jaye Zindgani.....
Bujhate bujate ye aag, kahi bujh na jaye Pani.

Tut kar kahi bikhar na jaye..
Bikhar kar kahi kho Na jaye..
Kho bhi jao agar tum..
To bhi mujhe chor na jao..

Aa jao ab to aa jao..
Bahane to bhot hote hai;
Fir se sambhalne ke..
Par is Na chiz ke khatir,
Jaan Kabhi tum toot na Jao..

22.55 13.09.12

On 9/23/12, Abhishek made in loveistan <abhishekawara12345@gmail.com> wrote:
> Nothing to loose,
> thinking just of you.. <3
> it was clear my heartbeat was so fast..
> The runoff of the time was like streaming water at Night..
> The Lights reflection was just like My sparkling eyes..
> It was not because my eyes were gazzeling..
> It was due to the eyes i'd been with was crying..
> Even the broken eyes can cry now...
> No matter 'where was my tear's'
> It was just the set of Emotions,
> which created the disturbance..
> In only a Single Night I was completely Destroyed..
> Sense's of mine were lost..
> Attitude of mine were like Apocolypse.
> Where everyone had to die..
> But at last my sense's was Active and i found, i was Alone..
> I was the only person who was disturbed.. And the text i wrote..were
> the disturbance.
> 23:00 , sunday, 9th sept 2012
>
> On 8/30/12, Abhishek made in loveistan <abhishekawara12345@gmail.com>
> wrote:
>> A new beginings...
>>
>

Not with the Sense

Nothing to loose,
thinking just of you.. <3
it was clear my heartbeat was so fast..
The runoff of the time was like streaming water at Night..
The Lights reflection was just like My sparkling eyes..
It was not because my eyes were gazzeling..
It was due to the eyes i'd been with was crying..
Even the broken eyes can cry now...
No matter 'where was my tear's'
It was just the set of Emotions,
which created the disturbance..
In only a Single Night I was completely Destroyed..
Sense's of mine were lost..
Attitude of mine were like Apocolypse.
Where everyone had to die..
But at last my sense's was Active and i found, i was Alone..
I was the only person who was disturbed.. And the text i wrote..were
the disturbance.
23:00 , sunday, 9th sept 2012

On 8/30/12, Abhishek made in loveistan <abhishekawara12345@gmail.com> wrote:
> A new beginings...
>

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Under the Hood


                                          Under the Hood

Rain Started..
I'd no Idea wheather to stop somewhere or just go on..
Rain was Abonded on my way.. The traffic were high on the Road. Horn Noises were irritating mah broken heart. I still decided to go and not to stop. Rain was heavy. I was in my hood and i moved. My every step were just going back ; in Flashback, and were Remembering the Pictures of my Personal life. Muzic of Rains, Tune of Vans, Buzzing of Bikes apart from this no one Noticed a Heart's Strike. These all Mixup to form a Sensation Inside me. I Was going through the mid of the road cuz it had some space to escape. The same were in my life, i chose a mid way, where space was there, but i did'nt thought that it may be dangerous. Hood on my face were protection of not to get recognised. I was not ashamed of my did. But i was feeling insecure and i was afraid too.
I 'd a girl. She had a boyfriend and i was her lover. She dumped him because of me and i hurt her because i was stupid. She turned out this way that, she dumped him cuz of me, and i dumped her cuz i was Stupid. She turned me this way that i stood wrong for her. She was a girl of pure enjoyment. one night She'd a party invitation she offered our group and me too. We went to the party and we were late. Party was over now, we all were frustrated , we were in mood of party and there was no party now, we decide to get back to the hotel and do some enjoyment. That night her boyfriend was co-incidently there. She and i was still in not a good relation. Next day i and rest of the group were came to know that she hanged herself that night. Reasons were not sure. I cried alot . .alot . I was in trauma for six days. Later we came to know that her boyfriend raped her after drugging her. I were in full throttle. I decide to do something. Next day i made a plan and waited long...

After four year. . . .

Yesterday, i made my work, and i achieved mah trophy as his weakness. "uploading finished". Mobile showed a comment. I was in the same Hood with two blades in my hand and 100gm of drugs. Door no. 101 was locked. I was the master at breaking lock and i breakout in his room.
I made a deal-
"Die yourself or watch Watch yourself dying"
He chose 2nd one, i made a cut in his throat that was not breath taking. And puts 100gm of drugs there and in his nose. Them i went to bed. His girlfriend came nervously. There was a condom on table.
Today news paper first page says . . . .
-over dose taken breath
Media highlighted the murder but the murderer was still not in the lockup. Many people thinks that the person died was an innocent person, he might be an innocent person but in murderer view, he was a killer and rapist.
In my way i tried hard not to cry but 4 yrs tear's just flooded in my eyes and i was broken.
Then i smiled and started laughing loudly, too loudly . .
Road was clear and everywhere people were gathered. In groups, mobile and  i-pods were streaming the video. Some one voice came over. . "whats the title?" i was on the top of bridge.
Everytime when we feel that we owe a curse inside. Then there will be a challenging question asking you always. "Is it bad ?" i was a broken hearted person. Still i said No. And i accepted..
That 'i owe a curse and i did'nt did any sin . . . . . .'

 My body will fall down 1000 ft down in ocean..
And a girl said - The tiltle is 'SEX in 101'.

Saturday, August 25, 2012

hosh na ab apke aitbaar ka hai


kya baat dil me..
aaj aa gayi hai..
sayad kisi ke sath,
aj dillagi ho gayi hai..
wo jante nahi,
hum mante nahi,
wo batate nahi,
hum jatate nahi,
jane kya ho rha..
hum unhe ab satate nahi..
waade hazar karte hai..
har pal hazar hum marte hain,
har pal yahi aeitbar hum karte hai..
chahe ya na wo hume,
hum unse pyar karte hai..
masshaqat hoti hai bhot,
kubani v di jati hai..
pyar ko pana ho agar dosto..
to wafadari dekhi jati hai..
zeher aj jo pi hai humne,
uska swad kya bayan kare..
jis khanzar se mara hai hume,
us dhaar ko kya hum mode..
azi..modne se to mudta nahi kashti v,
jab jhud mazzhdaar ho..
to fir kya yaar ho..
beshabr hai ye zamana..
sari kayanat ap par nishar ho..
tu dhoop hai.. chamm se nikhar..
tu dhoop hai chamm se nikhar..
tu mehek hai ..dil me utar..
jane kya is sarab me hai..
chaddh.. gya hai aisa ki hosh na ab apke aitraaz ka hai..

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Wo kehti hai hum izhar nahi karte.

Wo kehti hai hum izhar nahi karte..
Wo kehti hai hum dil-e-pyar nahi karte..
Rawangi hai jo mere sine me kavi tm dkho..
Rawangi hai jo mere sine me kavi tm dkho..
Hamare dil me jo hai bhari nazakat..
Fir bin chand hi kahogi Eid Mubarak..
Akele ho aj to kya wo sohrat..
Garib ho aj to kya wo daulat?
Pyar me kehte hai hosh mat khona..
Pyar me kehte hai hosh mat khona..
Par hosh me jo kiya jaye, wo kya mohobbat ?

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Prestige Vs Confidence - War of Feelings

The feelings is not a needy thing but we humans need to have feelings. Although we dont like from our brain but heart wants to be in that feeling. Every single talks and chats makes us to do what we likes. Feelings for someone can be seen as profitable value for a while. But it depends on us to be with that feeling or not. Heart choice is best for us even in our worst choice of situation it choose the best one but sometimes one value kills other. One feeling can vanish other. Ego and prestige is somewhat related to the confidence, actually over confidence, one can loose his identity if he has lost his prestige. But failing at maintaing the attitude does'nt have any connection with survival values. When one's mind badly involves in these type of condition then he must have to loose either his identity or the confidence. But the one thing he can do to be safe is to listen to his heart.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

A 16th August Day - Hope to Be Normal


Ek aam din jaise har din, 16th august.. Har saal ata hai..par 2012 me sirf 1 bar aya.. 'kaha ho ? Ladki ho jo itna der laga rahe ho?' ladki ne ladke ko sms kiya.. Waqht 5.05 pm , 'bs aa rhe hai.. Ghumo tb tak' ladke ne reply kiya.. Ladke ka friend har tips ke sath ye batane ka ehsaash kar rha tha kahi wo koi galti na kar de.. 2 dairymilk ,bs yahi mila us'se bada kuch nahi tha us shop me.. Kismat kharb ladke ka.. Bhatakte akhir pahuch hi gya kisi trah.. 20 min late.. Ladke ne ladki ko khojna suru kiya, '4 th floor' ladke ne socha bt waha wo nahi thi.. 1 floor pe achanak us ladke ki nazar padi.. Aur wo ye decide na kar paya ki wo jaye kidhar se.. Ghum kr ya sam'ne se.. Bt he chose the short way to her.. 'lets go' boy said.. Atlast they were together, hi hello passed.. Ladke ne bond paper nikala.. Kya pagal tha wo, aur kuch suruat k liye nahi mila? 'layi ho tm?' ladke ne pucha.. 'hm bas jaise msg likhte hai waise hi likhe hain' girl replied.. Woah.. Gazb.. They sighned the paper.
Nw it was hot.. Ladke ko pasina chutt rha tha ki wo ladki kya bolegi.. Us se pehle ki wo kuch bolta 'lo' girl said, that was boy pen drive, jisme movie 'ek tha deewana' nd 'tere isi ishq me' song ekbar us ladki ko diya tha, 'kya hai isme' 'dkh lena, khushi naam se ek folder hai usme mera pics hai' 'ohh acha?' ladke ne pucha 'aur tmhara dance' that was insanity of him, ladke ko yaad aya kuch hai pocket me, usme dairymilk use diya.. 'tmhe pasand nahi?' 'pasand hai bt chhin ke khana jyada pasand hai..' ladke ne kaha, pagal ki trah fir bs upar niche niche upar ghumata raha use, 'kuch khana hai? Wonder vatika hai upar' 'nahi.. Lagta hai jaise bhuke hai'  ladke ne kaha to kaho jo baat bolna tha wo to ho nahi raha, 'tm kaho' ladki ne kaha.. Ladke ne yaad dilaya, 'han na kuch to kaho, tkh hai msg karte hai'
B- hi..
G- pagal bolo
B-  btao yes no, like or love ya hate.
G- yes, like han, love han, hate na.
Ladke ko aa gyi sharm.. Then girl asked the same, boy forwarded her msg to her only..
Avi soch kar gussa ata hai, they meets again.. Ladki - bolo tmhi.. Actualy there was a wish of boy ki jb v wo use propose kare uske liye gulabi aankhein gayega, aur ye chiz use rok rahi thi.. Girl asked to snap a pic, boy was insane he said something aur maar khane wala baat tha wo, to maar kha v gaya. Late ho rha tha, ladke ko ladki ki fikr hone lagi..wo use bahar le jana chahta tha bt ladki tayar nahi thi.. Ladka propose karne ke liye soch hi liya tha ki uske frnd ne aakar time bta diya, aur ye us ladke ne hi pucha tha. Bahar nikalne par ladke ne fuchka offer kiya ,bt ladki ne na keh diya, ladke ko thoda waqht guzarna tha, wo use le gya..after fuchka usne decide kiya wo aage kch door ja ka use propose karega, bt this time too uske frnd ne aakar ..u knw what i mean to say, bs ab kya tha late v ho chuka tha ladki ko, ladke ne use bye kaha aur wo chali gayi.. Bura to laga dono ko par kya kare wo bechara apne hi usulon ka maara.. Aur 16th august ka ek chapter khatm hua.........

Monday, August 13, 2012

In Evening I Walk to Remember You



Whenever I Looses mah control
i depended on you,
whenever i lost mah breath..
you made me feel Alive

Dark Night was like mah last break
where you entered ..
I was Murdered ..
But You grabbed mah voice and stayed with me..

I'll Never Forget that..
you are the one who has been with me Forever..
So I Want this time To Remember.

I Must be Mad about you..
to know all, the things i know is not Enough..
but knowing you is also not that tough.

i've been with you so long..
cuz u always made me to live ..and not to exist.

the dreams comes true..
the life turned out..
like something a sunlight after this dark black out!

today i want to say something..
at last its not commitment..
its not a pray..
its not a choice,
its only a voice..

these are the pure words to say..
please accept these all feelings from 'dil se..'
you know its all true ..
that "girl ..you are amazing to Me And ..I Love You."
                                                                 -TJ

Thursday, July 26, 2012

A Special DedicatioN - girl you are amazing - to Jessi


From the highest Fountain,
  your face Rises in Mah Heart..
Red Blossoms Makes You
A Very Special for me on Earth..

When I See your face,
 mah Text gonna change for the Last..
Even Afterlife, You 'll be my Choice.

In Clear Ways, ..You are the one who is pure..
I Love you baby Forever..
this much I am Sure ..

From your Eyes, I see a Dream For our life..
We 'll be Together, Even if I fall far Away From your Smile ..
                                                  -TJ

Sunday, June 24, 2012


Aj kuch kehna chahta hai dil. Its 1.28 am, after getting on bed.. i just woke up. I just dont want to sleep. ..no actually i ‘ve watched something heart touching ... that was not any dream. That was not any video. That was my fantasy.. which left a un-imaginable pain in heart. After watching Satyamev Jayte – break the silence , i want to write something. Am feeling too bad for those who struggled child abuse in their chilhood. Its not any new topic m talking on.. but its new feeling now. I can say clearly that after getting a response i was shocked. About 53% of the child is victim of child abuse? How it could be? Families are there to care of child.. relatives are there. How this can happen? And if it happen then why the victim is not able to break the silence? Why? On worldwide basis acording to 2009 women and child development organisation survey its transparent that 17.9 % children are female and 9.7% are male who are sexually abused. In all these about 43% is in africa. Lowest in america 2% and 10% in asian countries. Mostly the 60% abusers are from relatives and family. 30% are neighbour, babysitters and close one. And 10% are others or stranger.. now the question is why? ...i will not talk about the answers... you should find them.. if i answer you, u will be free. Just open youtube and search for Satyameva Jayate episode 2. U ‘ll find all ur answers. www.thefairlove.blogspot.com has a story “I AM NOT WITH ME, CUZ I WAS STOLEN” based on true story. And yeah be clear that m not advertising. Jai hind.
-TJ 

Friday, June 1, 2012

Hamare ghunghroo ki taal par aapki aankhein


                 Hamare ghunghroo ki taal par aapki aankhein
Today is not any special day, its ordinary as u and me. Today i want to write in hindi..
Kya kuch ho jata hai jiski umeed v nahi hoti hai .... magar har chiz agar apne mutaabik hi ho ...to kya fayeda hoga aapke human hone ka? ....actually baat ye hai ki aj kuch hua.... kuch khash nahi ... aj result aaya ... jo ki unexpected tha...
Ek aisa hi unexpected story main aapko aj sunnane ja raha hu.

Kahani hai lucknow k ek chote se 19 saa ke ek raajkumar ki.
Shauk jiska padhai.. aur uske alawa khali waqht me cricket khelna. Bas hum aur aap jaisa hi uski zindagi thi.
Magar jaisa ki har kahani me hota hai ki ... kuch anhoni...wahi yaha yaha v huyi.. ek raat jab usne apne ghar ke chaukhat pe kadam rakha to use ye ehsaas na yhi ki uske ghar me mayiyat ka baandh tut jayega. Baap ek charpayi par leta tha. Maa zamin par safed chadar me. Ghar me ek behen thi jo apne sasural se aayi thi. Uski aankhe namm to ho gayi par wo roya nahi. Paas k ek nadi kinare pathron ko taiyra raha tha aur is trah wo ho gaya zawan.. padhai karne k baad v use kuch khash hassil na ho saka. Usne seher chorne ka faisla kiya. Zab bade seher kolkata me pahucha to uski zindagi hi badal gayi thi khane ko khana nahi tha aur pine ko paani nahi. Magar bhot masaaqakt k baad use apne padhai ka koi fayeda mila. Use ek office me 10 hazar ki naukari lag gayi. 2 saal baad uska baap guzar gaya par wo antim sanskaar k liye na ja paya.
Akele rehne ke baad use ye lagne laga tha ki use koi apni zindagi me chahiye. Usne baar jana suru kar diya... ab sarab uski pehli pasand bann chuki thi..

Jaisa ki aap jante hai ... hamare blog par bina pyar ki baat huye kaise koi kahani puri hoti hai...

Ek naachne wali ne uska ek din hath pakda aur kaha .. “mujhe kharid lo”
Usne kaha kitne me ? “muft me” ladki ne zawab diya..
Ladke ne inkaar kar diya...
Bheed kuch use bar ki pasand na aayi wo apna bottle le kar bahar  aa gaya... fir uske dimag me us ladki ki chavvi bani ... aur wo itne nashe me tha ki usne wapas ja kar us ladki ko bula liya.
Us raat usne pehli baar sex ki.
Jo ki bhot hadd tak dono ke liye dezirable thi. Ladke ne us raat bhar uske saath ek hi bistar pe guzari. Ladki agle subah us se naam pata puchne lagi. Aur fir...
2 months later ...

Wo ache dost bann chuke the, aur ladki ki saadi hone wali thi.
Agale mahine uski ssadi ka khabar sunn kar wo udas ho gaya.. ladke ko kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kya kare. Usne us ladki ko apne dil ki baat bata di. Ladka us ladki se be-inteha pyar karne laga tha. Ladki ne kaha ki use paise ke liye shadi uske baap ne ek rahish khandan ke bete se kar raha hai. (jaisa ki har film me hota hai)
Ladke ne use 50 hazar apne kamayi ke paise ko us ladki ko de diye.. par ladki ke baap ki maang 12 lakh rupaye ki thi. Ladke ne loan le liya. Aur fir dono ne 2 week baad milne ka wada kiya.

6 week baad..
Ladke ne nahi ko 6 week se nahi dekha tha. Use shaq hua ki usne use dhokha diya. Aur ek din..
Ladki wapas aayi usne use 24 lakh rupaye dene ke waade kiye par shadi se inkar kar diya.
Ladke ne mana kiya... ladki ne nahi mana.
Agle subah ladkne ne khudkhusi karne ka jhuta khat uske naam pahucha diya, aur lucknow chala gay, ladki khub royi.. khoob royi...
Usne 24 lakh rupaye uske naam se anath asram me daal diya.. ladki ne ladke ko ek din lucknow me khoj liya.
Ladke ne apni aankhein ek accident me gawa diya.. aur aaj lucknow ki galiyon me sher-o-shayri aur gana gaya karta hai aur ladki khojte khojte us ladke ko usi ke gaano par mujra is chah aur aash me karti hai ki ek din wo uske aankhon ka ilaaz karwa payegi....

Friday, May 4, 2012

Male Bonding


                                 Male Bonding
                       --------------------------------------------------------------

“I ‘ll be there.. I’ll wait for you” said my friend.. hii today is someone birthday ..and m wishing good for her.. yes its her. A female..
But above speech of mah frnd was of  an unique day.. that was something like this.
Morning was unbelievable rise of black lights , it was cuz of a girl .. but later mah frnd said a sentence.. and that day i came to know that, the relationship world we lives in doesn’t need a lot of time to carry on the relationship , and if there is doubt in relationship, leaving the person for sometimes is pretty cool work.

The best thing about forgetting the relationship problems is being with frnds. Just no girl …only boys.. the company we miss in a love is friendship. We can do everything in male friend circle. But it too not means that I am giving a contrast to males. No, actually m focusing on the real values of life for a man …. You may take it as second priority but in mine case it comes on first. Whenever we struggles in our life the best way to get rid and to solve is being with the best friends. Here’s again m not contrasting the best friends. Again its male bond.  A male bond is actually a bond which occurs in every male, even there is a bond between u and ur enemy. It may be of less force, but I sure there will be attraction.

That day was a quite suspicious one cuz it was my day… in eve we met , he offered me to go bar.. and that was the awesome abnormal offer.. with more 4 5 frnds we enterd in bar .. then I came to know that there is a same purpose of every man behind sitting, dancing, singing, and chatting, that was about making girl to feel good with him. But another thing I came to know that most of the people were just like me, dumped and miserable. My energy came out, I took vodka and tried to be the central attraction of the crowd. Everyone just noticed me… too many girl came to know me.. asked me… and that was because of my friends… we came out and sat in park under the clean sky , twinkling stars first forced us to look us above.. I noticed that, that day stars were more beautiful than that of moon, then I compared a situation where stars were the my best friends and moon was that girl..
After we started vomating out the heart words… it was of ours relationship.. the male bonding. I was in terrible thought that why we did’nt took any “she” name?
I too louded my thoughts, and heart words. That was now awesome time for me.
 Bottle was now empty.. whole body started falling.. I was on ground and I felt asleep ..
“in a male life there may be a worst situation created by girls. They are just like hard disk, anytime they can crash, but ur compact friends are like compact disc who will never let you fall.. even if you fell down, they will take u out. They have power to turn or change anything in ur life, even ur breath. Now I really feel that what I need lifetime in my life is a best friends circle, which can strengthen the force of attraction of Male Bonding”

Next morning I was on my Bed… as I said they will take out u from any situation..
That’s what a Male Bonding is..
-TJ
3rd may 2012

Monday, April 23, 2012

The Face In Fade Light of My Dream

Sometimes Nigthts are Slower than Growing Grass,
that was the same night, once i was On road alone.
dont know, whom i was waiting for..
but yeah ..as she appeared near my sight, i felt the best smell in this world.. i started walking behind her, and kept walking, and stopped, i saw her.. till her face faded in Light  ..!
-TJ

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Azadi To Aaj Hai


       Azadi To Aaj Hai
bheegti huyi barish ko kaun rokega?
zalte hue sholo ko kaun fukega?
jab gulam hi ho sara jahan..
to Azadi ka Bigul kaun fukega?
isi trah trah kuch soch kar chala koi ajnabi..
dhoondne kisi naye seher me roji roti.
aakar dekha to na tha rupaya aur na thi chatt rehne ko kahi..
bhatka bhuke pyase dar-badar kavi yaha kavi waha, thokaron ki na thi kami.
kaun jane kya soch raha tha wo?
kise tha uski bedardi ka pata?
do din bhi na hue wo pucha khud se..
haye allah ye kaisi meri khata..
ladka hua naraz har manzar se , bhul gaya wo har ek nushke apne kaam ke ..
jaha tha wo bechara , huyi waha bhagdar.. jaan pada to malum chala..
sine me ghus gayi uske khanzar..
na koi jaaan  na koi pehchaan .. kar raha tha lete lete, yaad, hey bahgwaan..

door kahi uske nazron ki law boot gayi..
samjha wo ki uski zindagi ab to khatm ho gayi..
aankhe khuli agli subah ..bechara ye bhi na jaan paya dharti hai ki nark..
par khuda ki marzi to dekhiye.. pahuch chuka tha wo swarg.
ek ladki ki god me tha uska sar...
jane kaha wo pahuch chuka tha..
jane kaha wo fansh chuka tha... usne samjaha ki mai ise bha gya kya?
par aisa nahi tha... wo ladki dikhi use kuch sehmi si aur dari..
thodi der baad pata chala wo ladki ko lagi thi khanzar...
wo to ho gaya tha behosh us bhagdar me, wo ladki thi jo mari us manzar me..
-TJ

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

m sure you are here ..

                    m sure you are here ..from the shore of ocean.. your voice begins,from the first day, your smile meant.i may fall, but with you i know i can't.you are not my Dezire, its what you are my need..let i love you baby, and you too acept me.in a race of mah life, i may not with the world,but i promise i'll be at first, if you runs with me.no angels are as fortuner as you are for me,no gods are god for me, if you are here to bless me.once in a dim day light, i was in mah room corner..started thinking of you as my begginer,i asked many questions to myself, why m not with you..i realized i am the one who lost all what i got..i made a mistake in reading your love,i never tried to see your struggle for me.. mah girl.how mad i m ...the girl i loved , left her to hell..that day i crushed mah mind, and broked up the heart jail.i straight reached to her..i could now feel her presence.. and she could too.her eyes...deep down drive... i felt in her so live...she kissed me at my lips for first .. and then got evoporated in air..she was not with me now... i screamed so loud.needle of clock stopped and glass burst.a sound came suddenly... it was of ocean tide.i begged ocean for a place, where i can hide..                                         -TJ

Monday, April 16, 2012


Sach kehiye to ye sirf aur sirf meri choice hai ki aj, kal, aur beeta hua kal mere hi decision ke mirror hain. Jo mai kal tha ;aj wahi hun, par sayad utna nahi jitna ki mai kal hunga. Aj 4th jan 2012, ek sapne ki rimjhim bhari khali si saber ki duniya me aapka swagat hai, jahan hai aag, barish, do jaan aur andher wli subeh kin a dikhayi dene wali roshni. Jab tak ki ye mujhe pata chalta kyo ho raha hai, meri jaan dikh gayi, dil ke dhadakne se pehle hi duniya, aur duniya se pehle armaan dikh gayi, beete the jo pal aye hi nahi, waise hi kuch khwab dikh gaye, Raaz thi duniya ko pata, par fir v wo pyar chup gayi. Pata nahi kya mazboor tha , jo dil ka kasoor tha, jaan si ek pari meri aankhon me utar gayi. Nanhi si barish fir aankhon se chalak gayi. Fir kya? Barshaat huyi hansi ki , aur roshni huyi aansuon ke. Par us raat jane kaise roshni hi barshaat ke piche chup gayi, Andher me nazar aati ek safed si pari meri jaan le gayi, waqht bewaqht antra pehle aya, mukhda dil-e-kurbaan kar gayi. Aisa laga mano ki zanzir payal ban gayi ho, dafan huye kafan fir koi lapet aaya, hamari malika jo na thi, waqht uski tasveer le aya. Haye......! doob gaye hum is kashti me, jo samandar nigal gayi, fir subah hua aisa ki School ki alarm ghanti baj gayi..
-TJ

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.
- an email sent by my friend!



Wednesday, April 11, 2012

FOUNDER WILL BE A LOSER


                     FOUNDER WILL BE A LOSER
The things you have found
                                           Are not more .
The happiness you have lost , is not more..
The road you are going is not so long..
The water you drunk, was not the pearl..
The sunlight you felt, was not the moonlight..
The auro you felt, was not of rose..
The journey you enjoyed, was not bore..

Everything in your performance, was not effortless;
And power you absorbed, was not of superman..
The life you led was’nt so easy, but the destiny you have reached is not upto the mark..
But the love you defined was extra ordinary..
And the girl you kissed was not among the lacs,
Even not in crores..
Even not in trillions..
Because she was among the stars of the universe..
And i salute her beauty.
-TJ
-24th March 2010

Saturday, March 17, 2012

.. Aur Kisi Din… Jab Samandar Kinare …..


.. Aur Kisi Din… Jab Samandar Kinare …..

Jane kaha kaha ki batein is blog par chal rahi hai … magar..ek baat jo saman hai savi kahaniyo me wo hai PYAR or LOVE .. none of any is unidentical.. all are just for love.. kuch khusi k pal aur kuch gamm k pal.. magar pal to savi pya k hi hai..
Kuch aisi hi kahani aj nahi hai.. aj ek kahani hai ek ladke ki jo sochna hai use ki agar uske paas koi v… koi v aisi ladki aa jaye jo use solely love kare to kya wo apni lover.. jo us’se pyar karti v hai ya nahi …pata nahi hai ..magar han… wo love me hai ek dusre k sath… bas ikraar baki hai.. magar kya ladka ko agar koi mile to use chor dega? ….isi sawal par ghumti hai is poem ki baatein..


Aur kisi din.. samandar kinare….

Isi trah ek din..
Mulaqaat huyi ek khubsoorat se..
Laga ki koi apna hi hai..
Jane kyo kar gye wo paraye se..
Mehfil loot li unhone aakar samandar kinare..
Jab mujhe dikhi woe k chehra naya bayan karte..
Sare sapne mano saj gye ek hi raat me..
Nind aa gyi din k andhero me..
Socha tham lu aj hi iska haat..

Magar kya sach hoga ye nawab?
Sayad nahi.. mere dil ne kaha..
Han fir v baat to kar hi sakta hu..
Har kuch chahe na chahe ..mann ki awaz to chu hi sakta hu..
Paas pahucha.. badi saadgi thi us k andar..
Mann kiya ki abhi banal u ise apni dulhann..
Magar tha mai jo majboor..
Kaise karta ji huzoor..
Pucha maine chand se..
Ae chandni ki kasam tum kn ho?
Sabd alag the..
Chaal yahi thi..
Kahi.. mera naam hai priya
Apka? Puchi jaise hai..
Raj dikhi uski haath par likh..
Maine kaha “raj” mujhe bolte hai yaha sabhi..
“Nice” kya kaam hai aage wo puchi..
Bs dil kiya.. to puch liya..
Koi galat to nahi kiya?
Are nahi.. wo hass kar boli..
Maine v apne dill ki baat tatoli..
Dil ne kaha na .. mat pad tu iske piche..
Kya hoga tmhari bechari ka ?
Na chor use …
Maine kaha.. bhai.. ye jyada achi lag rahi ..
Akhi haar kar dil ne v kaha ..ja teri marzi..

Udhar intezar me thi meri mehboob ..
Idhar v waqt tha aane ka priya ki..
Mai dhal chukka tha uske pyar me..
Puri tarah badal chukka tha uske sansar me..
Na waqht ka pata raha na ishq ka..
Bas ho gya sufiyana..
Haye mere dil ka..

Ek sham …barish thi apne hi zor par ..
Dill dhadak raha tha milne ko us se… soch raha tha bs priya k hi sapne..
Na jane kyo aj kuch alag tha,,, sayad uski pyar ka …kuch alag sa asar tha..
Aj ki sham mai zaldi pahucha..
Dil jot ha bechain use dekhne ko..
Ankhein v thak chuki thi uske intezar me..
Dekha to.. mila mujhe dhokha..
Kuch der pehle tak tha uski baanhon me koi aur …
Mai tha khada… lachar .. majboor… jane kaise koi kar chukka aisa..
Dil ne kaha ..thik wahi kiya tumne kiya hai jaisa..
Bejaan ho gya dill ye bol kar..
Saanshein ruk gyi uski yaadon ko soch kar..
Namm to thi ankhein barish se v..
Ab sach me bhing chuki thi palke v..

Piche mudha to maine paya apna pyar..
Khadi thi jo ladki wahi yhi mere sapno ki sansaar..

Khud to keh na sake us se kuch..
Laga liya unhi ne gale humein..
Saj gayi wadiyan..
Jhul gaye jhule..
Khil gaye fool murjhaye..
Pyar hi pyar ho gya sama me..
Jo na ho paya tha ikraar varshon se…ho gya aj in lamhon me..

-TJ

Saturday, February 25, 2012

I Live Left Love Life ...


I Live Left Love Life ...

I may not say a word,
But my attitudes louds that..
I may not Show that love,
But my care display premier ..
I was bad to you,
Not mine intentions was..
You as choice was faith of mine,
And not just attraction of choice.
Hold enough my breath,
But it all’s respire here..
I never thought of without you,
Its make me something out of ME..
Mine love was not merry for you,
So i left..
I was cruel to one,
That was you baby..
And now there is no one.
           -TJ Abhishek

Thursday, February 23, 2012

I Am Not With Me, Cuz I Was Stolen


I Am Not With Me, Cuz I Was Stolen

Hi, Many Real STORIES we have listened and seend. But some of them are still in our minds and the values of it always keep us in right path to do not what the fault character of the stories has done.
This is TJ Abhishek here re-highlighting the text which has undergone somewhere. This is a true story and based on the news and interviews.
Characters name of the story has been changed. Real incident characters is not used in the story.
Some part of story has been changed to make the story more curious, awarefull, and entertaining.
Author of the story takes no responsibilities for any issues to being condemned or claimed by any other people.
Author just want to aware the world and to make readers aware of the facts.

                                                                     -TJ Abhishek





I Am Not With Me, Cuz I Was Stolen

Katty Roosevelt is the name of a girl born in Paris on 11 may 1980. Mom was her only care taker according to Katty. Her biological father died when Katty was 4 years old. Stepfather was not so closed to Katty but he had every love for Katty. Days gone. As katty was growing she started feeling a reluctance toward her mother. She was busy with her husband and child. No one was there in family to take care of her. Katty was in a elementary school in 6th standard. For her, her school was the only home and friends were the only life. She day by day started living the world again. She was not like other girls who just sticks to their Barbie doll and play. She wanted to explore something, something she never have seen. Her innocent beautiful blue eyes started finding next and then next topic to discover. Her fair skin and beautiful awesome body started herself exploring in her own body. She was in age of puberty and gradual development of her body can be seen now. She was to much excited about the awards show’s. she decided a day when she was watching a ramp walk that she will be a model. At 11 only she decided her path which is not easy. Mom used to drop her for school and home. But oneday when she attended her classes and bell rangs, she not found her mommy. A stop was their for buses she waited an hour for her mom but no avail. A park was near the school she went in park and sat on a curved bench. Her many friends used to sit in park while waiting for their parents. No one came to receive her. Whole park slept in silence. In katty home their was a plan for picnic that day and no one even remembered about her. 4.30pm rain started. Katty was still in park and thinking about the life of that tree whose leafs were falling one by one and tree were getting alone one by one. Inside she was relating the old leaf and branches as her life. Whenever new one comes , old one have to go . this type of thinking were started taking place in that innocent child brain. Her real feeling weredroping out via her cheeks and last were merging in the rain water. Winds comes to its worst phase and lightning also started sparking in horror way. Her mind was still thinking about the that’s  all situation and miserable life of her. She was in mental harassment she inside started crying and weeping. But there was a light of determination which were giving strength to her to fight all. But that day her emotions defeated her determination. 4.50pm a little evening praised the rain and rain got stunned for sometimes. Rain stopped but winds not. Green grass of park was blowing in unfaithful manner. Katty loves green grass. It was her father said that “whenever you get upset, try to hold a bunch of green grass and take in and out your breath by putting the bunch near to ur nose.Katty done the same and again sat under the tree because the rain again started. A man at 5.03 arrived in park to collect mushrooms. A part of park were under his land where he used to grow mushrooms.He sawed her. He was a psycho. Many crimes were there which he had done since from his birth. His bith was of april5 ,1951. He was a psychological problem. Whenever he see the young lady he starts having masturbating. And done the same in his car parked outside the park seeing little katty face and wet hips. Katty noticed a man outside the park. He entered in park with a black bag and stood in front of katty. Katty thought he is coming for asking any address. But he asked “what are you doing here baby?” starred her with bad intentions and putted the handcuff and black bag which he has brought to collect the mushrooms to her head. 5.13 was the only last vision of katty in park. She felt unconscious.Phillip austen was the name of that man. He is a criminal and has a big long criminal records. Psycho had a uncommon tendency to rape and exploit young girls before this he was arrested in many cases like this. He was earlier a drug enhaler. He married his classmate mariechocoskay and later when she awared of fact that he was abusive then she tried to live him but he kidnapped her. He again sent jail for assauling a 14 yr girl sexually. And again married a girl Abby lee austen.

Phillip brought kattyin his home backyard where he made the captivity. Opened the bag and starred her.And after wake her up by sprinkling water under a shower in backyard captivity.
Phillip- welcome to home.
Katty- who are you?
Phillip- I am ur boyfriend
Katty- what is boyfriend?
Phillip- shut up !
Phillip started kissing her on lips. And started touching her chest part. Katty was feeling uncomfortable. Dark night was like anyone funeral to her. She was crying hard and hard but no one were there to listen her. Phillip were in sex mood.
Phillip- come on sweetheart, come to me, make my desire.. (and used more sexual word)
Katty- leave me uncle please. I ‘ve to go home.
Phillip- am not ur uncle and u are in ur home. From now this is ur home and I am ur boyfriend.
He increased the shower more and started lifting her on her lap. He started undressing her by one by one clothing and raped badly. And slept with her whole night. Next day he woked up and putted a blanket over katty naked body. Blood was there on her legs. He sweped out the blood with the help of her cloth.

As next day sun comes up all started searching for her and a group of family members reached police station.
Katty’s mom- where is my child?
Katty’s stepfather- dear relax..sir my stepdaughter is missing. She was last in her school and after that we forgot to receive her.
Police- good..let we also forget to find her..
Katty’s stepfather- sir we are really very very sorry..
Police- we are writing the complain we will try our best to search her out.
Katty’s mom- thank u sir.
Police- now u can go
Katty’s family tried there best for searching out the little katty everywherebut no avail. They were poor family can’nt do more practice cuz every practice need a amount and they did’nt spare too much on that. Posters and notice were out but not in big mass.
Here Phillip met katty next day and and opened the handcuff and dressed her up.
Phillip- hey beauty hows the night?
Katty- (did’nt replied)
Phillip- how is this dress?
Katty- nice
Phillip- what is ur name?
Katty- katty Roosevelt.
Phillip- louder…(shouted)
Katty- katty Roosevelt
Phillip- huh..nice name
Phillip- Where do u live?
Katty- houstan lake
Phillip- What u were doing in park?
Katty- I was waiting..
Phillip- whom?
Katty- mom…. I need food.
Phillip- wait..
Phillip brought food for her , and also brought some medecines. And given to her.
Phillip- what do u like most in foods?
Katty- nothing
Phillip- say..(shouted)
Katty- pasta and burger..
Phillip- eat corns….(laughed)
Phillip leaves the place.
Katty was 2 days alone with a packet of corns only she had a butterfly shaped ring left only which she could hide from phillip. That was of her father given. She started thinking about him ..
Once katty and her father were in the same park she remembers him by only visualing the photo of her and him along with grass in hand.
She remembered about him , that how much he cares her when he was alive.Incident of grass smelling lesion droped again the priceless tears.

Police were trying hard to find her. 1st week passed. No response came from the side of family or police.
Phillip facilatedkatty by every means he extended the cable and provided a tv set in captivity. but she could not see the news, and was unaware of the publicized search for her.
One day when Phillips was with his wife talking about the ransome at the cost of katty. Katty shouted at her and screamed “no…. don’t, they don’t have money to take back home. Keep me here only use me and my body , I’ll say not a single word” katty was matured of tackeling Phillips. And can control him by saying emotional words. Phillips came to katty. And shouted at her roughly.And started beating her.
Almost a month and a half after her kidnapping, by katty’s recollection, phillips moved her to a larger room next door, where she was handcuffed to the bed.
He explained that the "demon angels" let him take her, and that she would help him with his sexual problems because society had ignored him.phillip also told her that by engaging in sex acts with him, which he would videotape, she was protecting other girls that he would not need to victimize. phillip also went on methamphetamine binges he called "runs", during which he would dress katty up, and spent time with her cutting out figures from pornographic magazines.He would also make her listen for the voices he said could hear from the walls. These binges ended with phillip sobbing and apologizing to katty, but alternately threatened to sell her to people who would put her in a cage.A neighbor of the phillip said he recalls, as a child, meeting katty through a fence in the phillips' yard soon after the kidnapping. He said that she had identified herself by the name "Jaycee" and that's when he asked her if she lived there or was just visiting, she answered that she lived there. At that point Phillip came out and took her back indoors.Seven months into her captivity, phillipintroduced kattyto his wife,who brought the child a stuffed animal and chocolate milk, and engaged in the same tearful apologies to katty. In some case of a girl sexually assaultated phillip was called to give a test. Till his wife used to be the controller of katty, she made her scare of many things sometimes used emotional talks to let everything according to her. She treated her badly but cares of her to get more work and ransome from her. But now they were in thinking of not taking ransome. They are now going to keep her in their home where she would work as their housemaids.

After Three Years …

Phillip was back , now he was with his meditation and practice of not to assault anyone without the person willings. And now he was going good in his work. Days passed. All was normal, they started celebrating birthday’s of Katty, this year katty was of 13. But they still keep her in handcuff most of the time. Handcuff was attached to the her bed.
One night phillip came to the room of katty. She was sleeping. He sat near her and started talking to her. They disscussed the all three years events and days. Katty had something to say to phillip
Katty- I wanna say something
Phillip- yes baby
Katty- I wanna go out
Phillip- why? Don’t u happy here..? what u don’t have? Tell me? I’ll bring anything for you..
Katty- then just lem me out..
Phillip started teasing katty..
He grabs her breast and said “too bigger than previous time”
“from the first day I ‘ve seen you after my back I ‘ve become again freak… I think meditation is not working”
Katty- no..(she started crying)
Actually she was not crying she was internally screaming but not a single voice came out. But natural tear how much can wait. She had a harsh situation, in this type of forces she had gone through many times before. She was aware of the fact by tv that in age 13 one can be pregnant.
Katty- please don’t exploit me…(and she just broked)
Her sparkling eyes was that day seems to be dull …no reflection at all. Only wet tears..
Phillip- m not exploiting you.. am just using my stuff.
He started snacthing her dress like a wolf. Kissed her, and this time it was the long one.
Katty was just after that become cold. Her body eas not at all moving she was like freezed.
He undressed her. He was now aware of the fact
Phillip- “ah.. see, black.. tight and matured”
And he raped her again.
This time badly..

There no new news was there….!!!
Police was with again nothing. Family was quite also had left the investigation.


After ½ months, Katty was pregnant.
In only at the age of 13 yrs 6 and ½ months she was pregnant. Which is not a maturity age of a female body to give birth to a child.
Phillip and his wife served her with good cloths, food , and behaviour when they came to know that she was pregnant.

After the pregnancy katty was quite attched emotionaly to phillip.


She gave birth to a daughter.. in 1994

And again got pregnant by phillip
And again a daughter in 1997

Later next 15 years she stayed with him.
And started doing work in a editor office.
Later when she getuped with the world pace, she started realing the reality. Truth and wrong along with lier and right.
                     
And lastly, stands against the phillip and his wife.
She was welcomed in her real house.
A candle march …for katty in whole city moved.
Police apolizes for their not rightly performed task.
And ..
……………….
PHILLIP was sentanced to lifetime jailed. And his wife 7 years for helping in abduction.
Later, many sexual assault cases dumped to him. Where he was first treated for his psychological imparement.
 And later, katty (*not katty) written her book “MY STOLEN LIFE” (must read) which was successful….


NOW HER AGE IS 32 ans she is living a happy life with her daughters.


                                                                                -TJ