hosh na ab apke aitbaar ka hai

kya baat dil me..
aaj aa gayi hai..
sayad kisi ke sath,
aj dillagi ho gayi hai..
wo jante nahi,
hum mante nahi,
wo batate nahi,
hum jatate nahi,
jane kya ho rha..
hum unhe ab satate nahi..
waade hazar karte hai..
har pal hazar hum marte hain,
har pal yahi aeitbar hum karte hai..
chahe ya na wo hume,
hum unse pyar karte hai..
masshaqat hoti hai bhot,
kubani v di jati hai..
pyar ko pana ho agar dosto..
to wafadari dekhi jati hai..
zeher aj jo pi hai humne,
uska swad kya bayan kare..
jis khanzar se mara hai hume,
us dhaar ko kya hum mode..
azi..modne se to mudta nahi kashti v,
jab jhud mazzhdaar ho..
to fir kya yaar ho..
beshabr hai ye zamana..
sari kayanat ap par nishar ho..
tu dhoop hai.. chamm se nikhar..
tu dhoop hai chamm se nikhar..
tu mehek hai ..dil me utar..
jane kya is sarab me hai..
chaddh.. gya hai aisa ki hosh na ab apke aitraaz ka hai..

Wo kehti hai hum izhar nahi karte.

Wo kehti hai hum izhar nahi karte..
Wo kehti hai hum dil-e-pyar nahi karte..
Rawangi hai jo mere sine me kavi tm dkho..
Rawangi hai jo mere sine me kavi tm dkho..
Hamare dil me jo hai bhari nazakat..
Fir bin chand hi kahogi Eid Mubarak..
Akele ho aj to kya wo sohrat..
Garib ho aj to kya wo daulat?
Pyar me kehte hai hosh mat khona..
Pyar me kehte hai hosh mat khona..
Par hosh me jo kiya jaye, wo kya mohobbat ?

Prestige Vs Confidence - War of Feelings

The feelings is not a needy thing but we humans need to have feelings. Although we dont like from our brain but heart wants to be in that feeling. Every single talks and chats makes us to do what we likes. Feelings for someone can be seen as profitable value for a while. But it depends on us to be with that feeling or not. Heart choice is best for us even in our worst choice of situation it choose the best one but sometimes one value kills other. One feeling can vanish other. Ego and prestige is somewhat related to the confidence, actually over confidence, one can loose his identity if he has lost his prestige. But failing at maintaing the attitude does'nt have any connection with survival values. When one's mind badly involves in these type of condition then he must have to loose either his identity or the confidence. But the one thing he can do to be safe is to listen to his heart.

A 16th August Day - Hope to Be Normal

Ek aam din jaise har din, 16th august.. Har saal ata hai..par 2012 me sirf 1 bar aya.. 'kaha ho ? Ladki ho jo itna der laga rahe ho?' ladki ne ladke ko sms kiya.. Waqht 5.05 pm , 'bs aa rhe hai.. Ghumo tb tak' ladke ne reply kiya.. Ladke ka friend har tips ke sath ye batane ka ehsaash kar rha tha kahi wo koi galti na kar de.. 2 dairymilk ,bs yahi mila us'se bada kuch nahi tha us shop me.. Kismat kharb ladke ka.. Bhatakte akhir pahuch hi gya kisi trah.. 20 min late.. Ladke ne ladki ko khojna suru kiya, '4 th floor' ladke ne socha bt waha wo nahi thi.. 1 floor pe achanak us ladke ki nazar padi.. Aur wo ye decide na kar paya ki wo jaye kidhar se.. Ghum kr ya sam'ne se.. Bt he chose the short way to her.. 'lets go' boy said.. Atlast they were together, hi hello passed.. Ladke ne bond paper nikala.. Kya pagal tha wo, aur kuch suruat k liye nahi mila? 'layi ho tm?' ladke ne pucha.. 'hm bas jaise msg likhte hai waise hi likhe hain' girl replied.. Woah.. Gazb.. They sighned the paper.
Nw it was hot.. Ladke ko pasina chutt rha tha ki wo ladki kya bolegi.. Us se pehle ki wo kuch bolta 'lo' girl said, that was boy pen drive, jisme movie 'ek tha deewana' nd 'tere isi ishq me' song ekbar us ladki ko diya tha, 'kya hai isme' 'dkh lena, khushi naam se ek folder hai usme mera pics hai' 'ohh acha?' ladke ne pucha 'aur tmhara dance' that was insanity of him, ladke ko yaad aya kuch hai pocket me, usme dairymilk use diya.. 'tmhe pasand nahi?' 'pasand hai bt chhin ke khana jyada pasand hai..' ladke ne kaha, pagal ki trah fir bs upar niche niche upar ghumata raha use, 'kuch khana hai? Wonder vatika hai upar' 'nahi.. Lagta hai jaise bhuke hai'  ladke ne kaha to kaho jo baat bolna tha wo to ho nahi raha, 'tm kaho' ladki ne kaha.. Ladke ne yaad dilaya, 'han na kuch to kaho, tkh hai msg karte hai'
B- hi..
G- pagal bolo
B-  btao yes no, like or love ya hate.
G- yes, like han, love han, hate na.
Ladke ko aa gyi sharm.. Then girl asked the same, boy forwarded her msg to her only..
Avi soch kar gussa ata hai, they meets again.. Ladki - bolo tmhi.. Actualy there was a wish of boy ki jb v wo use propose kare uske liye gulabi aankhein gayega, aur ye chiz use rok rahi thi.. Girl asked to snap a pic, boy was insane he said something aur maar khane wala baat tha wo, to maar kha v gaya. Late ho rha tha, ladke ko ladki ki fikr hone lagi..wo use bahar le jana chahta tha bt ladki tayar nahi thi.. Ladka propose karne ke liye soch hi liya tha ki uske frnd ne aakar time bta diya, aur ye us ladke ne hi pucha tha. Bahar nikalne par ladke ne fuchka offer kiya ,bt ladki ne na keh diya, ladke ko thoda waqht guzarna tha, wo use le gya..after fuchka usne decide kiya wo aage kch door ja ka use propose karega, bt this time too uske frnd ne aakar ..u knw what i mean to say, bs ab kya tha late v ho chuka tha ladki ko, ladke ne use bye kaha aur wo chali gayi.. Bura to laga dono ko par kya kare wo bechara apne hi usulon ka maara.. Aur 16th august ka ek chapter khatm hua.........

In Evening I Walk to Remember You

Whenever I Looses mah control
i depended on you,
whenever i lost mah breath..
you made me feel Alive

Dark Night was like mah last break
where you entered ..
I was Murdered ..
But You grabbed mah voice and stayed with me..

I'll Never Forget that..
you are the one who has been with me Forever..
So I Want this time To Remember.

I Must be Mad about you..
to know all, the things i know is not Enough..
but knowing you is also not that tough.

i've been with you so long..
cuz u always made me to live ..and not to exist.

the dreams comes true..
the life turned out..
like something a sunlight after this dark black out!

today i want to say something..
at last its not commitment..
its not a pray..
its not a choice,
its only a voice..

these are the pure words to say..
please accept these all feelings from 'dil se..'
you know its all true ..
that "girl ..you are amazing to Me And ..I Love You."
                                                                 -TJ