I Will Laugh.. Always n Always!

I am the greatest laughter of the World.. YES I AM, cuz i laugh on MyselF.. Cuz m the greatest.
World arround Me dnt alow me laugh at anyone bt in the hell heaven of dis Earth i laugh.... I go against my wish Desire.. Of nt laughing sometimes on Myself. .

World is full of happiness, nd sorrow.. Many people lives their life for being happy.. Nd many to give happiness, m also for giving happiness, nd also for living in Sorrow of other's. . .ah, god rain started.. Its 1.38 am of 17th sept. 2011, nd m writting dis after listening nd thinking a record of my bro luv words, sry i dnt have the permisn to hear al those, bt as a luv guru, i can do. . . . . .umm.. Yeah shes.. Gud at talk bt dnt knw reality, nyway, m talking abt my frnds.. They al r happy with their mates nd m Alone.. Living life fr other's nd sm little part of it for Myself MEe too.. Is it like that. . .that whenever i think abt D , rain starts! . . . .nah. . . .i dnt thnk so bt i knw so, even for a while i m cnfusd too.... It will be my plesure if i success in my work.. I 'll assume that my life nt gone waste if i coME in anyone use....
.ah
ah.. .again tears in mah eyes.. Go yar, dnt knw what they want to say. . . .smile on my facing is...... Suppresing my Emo..
Ah. . .gud nyt

Oh god what do u want?

when it was raining, I was writting..
When i ws writting the post 'm sorry' then after rembering D, and while i was praying for her rain get started.. Exactly at 2.01am 8th sept 2011
what god wants? Whats he's trying to say.. M cnfused god.. Plz help me. I really Need ur help god.. Plz help me.. Help me D..

Bina kisi galti ke sorry to maine ajtak bolna nahi sikha.. Par aj kyo jane aisa lagta hai ki kisi ki maafi ki ki zarurat aan padi hai.. Zindgi ek aisa mazak kar rahi hai zaha se hum khud ko v nai dekh pa rhe hai.. Ye pyar word ne meri world tabahh kar diya hai. Aj khud mai apne written par afshosh manata hu ki maine kya galat likha tha ki 'without the L world is only a word' here L is love. Bt today i thinks that no.. i was wrong ..
Humare dil me D k liye zagah hai.. Bt wo zagah zis rishte pe hai wo rishta ka naam mai nahi janta.. Bs janta itna hu ki wo mujh se aur mai us se ek acha fair relation rakhta hu..
I really wish from my heart, that wo jaha rahe truely khush rahe.. Usko jo mile wo usse betahan pyar kare.. Har waqt uske sath rahe, use har buniyad par swikare.. Har choti se choti aur badi se badi khusiyan de.. Uska zivan ek aise vyakti se jude jo is duniya me sirf usi ke liye zanma ho.. Uski ek hansi pe apni zindgi v chali jaye to koi gamm nahi.. Mgar uski ankhon me ek ansu mere dil se nikle har armano ka katl kar dengi.. Zinge mai bakshne wala nahi hu..

D .. Tm janti nahi shayad, tmhare karan jo mai meri zindgi se mohobat karne laga hu ki aj har kali pe fool bante dekha hai, registan me pani aur samandar me aag barashte dekha hai, zingario se tufan aur sholo se aag nikalta dekha hai..
Meri mehbooba S jo meri saansh hai, wo to meri ho na saki ab tak.. Mgar tm ek bar apne dil se mujhe mano to mujh garib ko itna pyar to mil hi jayega ki mai apni zindgi guzar lu..

5th sept, 2011
6.47am
One of the Fantastic true desire of mine is fullfilled bt in dream. Yesterday i was feeling so bad so bad, jaise ki meri atma mujh se nikal gayi ho, my soul even were nt believing in me.. Yes i was alone yesterday.. I tried to put on the book to study bt i fails.. Abt 11.02 i was listening to akon new album Konkrete.. Nd i got slept .. 1.15am again i woked up.. And that time i was again feeling too bad.. I 've written a poem related my sorrow in Fb status. . Abt 1.30 i again slept.. After that everything favour's me nd i dreamt abt her, i was abt to call her in my dream, i tried bt no one recieved.. After sometimes she calls back.. When i was nt there.. I came home my sis said.. She 'll call again.. My sis told her that this is Abhishek phone no., i think she had understood everything by that call 'bt might 've some confusion.. After that she calls ..i attended and said hello.. She said hello Abhishek.. That time my heart was off of rythm of bicuspeed and tricuspeed. Then i tried to spoke something bt my mind had nthng that time then she told me directly that a boy of 12 c were telling her that 'she 'll be s_kha boyfriend?' i asked, who said.. She said ur friends only.. ' after that i got a internal happiness which had no sorrow, no any problem, no pain, after that no dizire...... And after that she said say na smthng.. Bt i had nthng to say that time . . .i said , then she started singing a song.. I dnt remember what was that song bt i felt like heaven.. It was my one of the true dizirable ..dream.
After that's phone cuts..
Then i said al these to my frnds..
If i look to the event done , everything will be clear..
Mere har sapne me uske ane ka kya matlb hai? Jb jb bhulna chahta hu kisi karan se wo same ho jati hai, us din school k stage pe, fir ek din sapne me, fir us din car me road par, fir ek din k.n me.. Aur fir aj .. Nai, aj kuch alag hua, pehle sari chize hoti thi jb mai bhulna chahta tha use. Aur aj jb mai sbse akela mehsus kar rha tha tavi uska khwab aya.. These al points smthng.. Bt god plz u have to help me for my decision plz.. I dnt want that her love goes to another man.. Plz god help me.. Help me..... In my fair Love..